I’m sitting on the floor of a house where seven college guys reside. Wearing my brothers’ clothes. Alone. … o_O

Background story: I’m spending the night at my brother’s place before shooting a wedding tomorrow. I have to admit I felt very out of place when I first showed up. His Bible Study had just ended and I walked into a house of thirty guys. Even if it was a co-ed group I would feel out of place because of my age. I awkwardly said hi to the large mass of boys and begged my brother to feed me because I was starving. He gave me a quick tour of the house and we left to get dinner.

We returned after eating and within the next hour, all of his roommates left to go out and have fun. I keep forgetting it’s Friday. It feels like a Thursday. My brother stuck around for a while (half-watched Glee with me) before gingerly asking if it was okay for him to go hang out too. lol. I could care less. I don’t mind being alone and I wasn’t really expecting him to entertain me. We get along well, but we’re not close… so here I am chilling in his room on my laptop.

Oh and I forgot to pack pajamas, so that’s why I’m borrowing his. Odd situation right?

I want to keep watching Glee but I should be editing photos/memorizing poses for tomorrow/editing more photos. I promised a couple I would be done with their wedding by tonight.

Maybe I should take a shower too, while everyone is gone.

It’s been so long since I have updated consistently. There are so many things to write about… I wouldn’t even know where to start. I guess this counts as a start!

Sweet. Got another one of those surprise visits aka neat freak room inspections from my dad. As expected, disbelief and anger were written all over his face. “Look at how you live,” he said. As if scrapbook paper and clothes on the floor equal a life of failure.

Maybe I’ll start a video series giving you all a tour of my room. Just to make myself feel better about being a so-called slob. Guess I should’ve done this two weeks ago for Sonlay’s challenge, lol.

My friend recently messaged me on fb requesting a product photo shoot this week. He said he had a “spare $100.”

I don’t know if I’m grateful that he appreciates my work and values it enough to compensate me… or if I’m offended that he used the term “spare.” I don’t know.

How would you feel?

In other completely unrelated news, another friend of mine is studying to be a doctor and told me stories about abortions. Specifically the 33 procedures she witnessed as an intern. It actually made me feel sick to my stomach hearing about the baby that they wrapped in a towel and threw away… a baby with fingers and toes and eyes.

Maybe it is related; both of these incidents didn’t make me feel too great.

Me: (Watching Blue Valentine and sobbing) I hope my marriage doesn’t end like that…
Ryan: It won’t. It will end like this.
Ryan: *choking noise*
Me: LOL what was that?!??!
Ryan: I was looking at you. And then I died.

LOL.

Sad, sad movie…

Wow, how do Youtube people do it??! I get so nervous! I’m not really competing in the challenge but I felt bad, so I made a quick video.

@Roadlesstaken @Timmmmmmy @Flipguy31O

I was talking to another Sunday School teacher about possibly hosting a girls’ bonding event at my house this summer. His youngest daughter is an 8th grader in our class.

C: That would be terrific! I think it’s a great idea to have the girls spend time with an older role model. I’m trying to instill good values… You know, like… No dating until they’re 40, that type of thing. My daughter is already talking about boys.
Me: *laughs nervously*
My mom: Oh, you’re talking to the wrong person.

LOL.

I was 11 years old when I had my first “boyfriend”. We hugged and held hands and said “I love you” to each other. I wonder what C would think if he knew that.

My friend misajour is doing this and I want to do it too. It’s a 30-day letter challenge. Perfect opportunity to put all my pretty stationary to use!

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

I have also tried to write letters/send postcards to several Xangans, but they did not go through. If you would like a letter from me, could you please message me your current address? Hope nothing gets lost in the mail this time..

We’re moving in three days. I am SO sick and tired of hearing my parents tell me I have too much junk, too much stuff. I want to go to my friends’ houses and document their rooms in photos and SHOW my parents that it’s NOT THAT BAD. Not to say that my friends are slobs or hoarders but I just want to show them that this is normal!!!!

Not that anybody cares, but yeah… kind of freaking out about my schedule for the next week or so. Entertaining a guest from Malaysia for two days, then five shoots in a span of four days.

Thursday:
- pick up table, props, floral arrangements for bridal shoot
- breakfast downtown Pleasanton
- SF all day
- SF condo at night

Friday:
- SF all day, Jolene leaves around 6 pm
- SF condo at night

Saturday:
- SF engagement session 8:30 am – 10:30 am
- go home, scout locations for bridal shoot

Sunday:
- church 10:30-12
- pick up cupcakes and pastries
- Allie’s hair and make up at my house 1:30 pm
- Allie and Adam bridal shoot 3 pm
- Arany family shoot 5 pm
- Allie and Adam bridal shoot (continued) 6:30 pm
- leave for Davis at night

Monday:
- Nate and Kelcie engagement session 9:15 am
- drive home

Tuesday:
- Katie Jung grad portraits SF, time TBD
- small group 8 pm, my turn to lead

This has nothing to do with that pulse earlier. Gah I need to get that off my chest but it’s almost midnight and I have to wake up early and I haven’t showered yet and I’m already tired…

It’s Jolene’s first time to the U.S. and she’s been planning this trip for an entire YEAR. Here I am planning her tour of San Francisco… 12 hours in advance. I know how much this means to her and who knows when she’ll be able to come back again. She wants to see and do as much as possible, which I hope to provide for her!

I’m usually not this busy. I have to remind myself, busy is a good thing. Praise God for blessing me with all these shoots, I could really use the income.

Yeah I’m never going to cut it that short. I cannot bear to part with my long hair. But it was fun to pretend!

UPDATE:

Here you go Alex.