It is 4 pm in the afternoon and I am still in my pajamas, sporting freshly painted nails and makeup from the day before. I just finished sending out a batch of follow up emails and wonder if any will return with good news. Doubtful, but you never know.

I enjoy telling people that I’m weird because of how often they respond with a stern look. “No, you’re not.” Unless they really know me well. I enjoy that reaction too… because they know exactly what I’m talking about.

Tell me, is it normal to sit at the edge of your bathtub to soak your feet in hot water on a Thursday afternoon? While in your pajamas and eating leftover pasta out of a tupperware? I had never thought to bring food into the picture but it was so ridiculous, it made me feel free.

Free to create my own escape.

I feel calm and thoughtful. I like this.

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Now back to editing:

Leigh Ann & Kevin wedding
Jen & Brian engagement
Bijel & Sejal wedding
Pauline & John wedding
Jason & Dana wedding
Chandra & Irene wedding
Arman & Marissa wedding
Katie & Shadi wedding

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Ready, set, GO.

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through

I am so tempted to post emo song lyrics on facebook every five minutes. Why does the Maroon 5 station on Pandora play such sad songs??! I thought Maroon 5 was supposed to be upbeat.

Yes, I still use Pandora. Yes, I know Spotify is better.

Not very many people know, but for the past few weeks I’ve been facing a difficult and personal matter. Except I’m not really facing it… because it’s too painful to face. To be honest I’m proud of myself for faking it so well. Anyone who checks up on me via facebook would never guess what I’m going through. And I’d like to keep it that way.

My smiles and laughter in the moment are genuine… but I am fighting hard to suppress the emotions inside.

I am numb. I will move along.