March 23, 2011

  • 31 Days

    Sometimes I feel like I need therapy. Those ugly thoughts and emotions have been slowly creeping back into my mind and they consume me. I know that I’m destroying myself. I know that I’m making myself miserable. But there’s nothing I can do to make the feelings go away. Will they ever go away? :(

    I had a wonderfully therapeutic talk with my best friend from high school. We’ve grown apart over the years but especially in the past year and a half since I graduated college. I’ve talked about this with many friends but her words meant the most… maybe because she knew the history behind what I was telling her. After we talked it seemed like there was nothing to worry about. She made me feel like everything would be okay in the end… As if I could conquer myself and win the battle.

    The problem is, her comfort only lasts so long.

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    I want to go one month without hurting myself emotionally, starting today. I’ll take it one day at a time.